What Do You Wish You Could Believe Again?

I wish I could believe that God cares about me. I used to think he did... but.. I don't really matter much anyway, so He's probably justified in not wasting His time. I used to believe everything was ok and that maybe my life wasn't totally pointless after all, but I've come to realize how little I mean to everything and everyone. Ignorance is bliss, right? I wish I could have that ignorance back. I wish I could believe again that someone as amazing as God could care about me.